These last couple days...no, these last couple weeks have been kind of weird. I'm off to college on Saturday, and it almost feels like I'm leaving this town forever. To be honest, I would love to be able to come back and live here for the rest of my life after college, but I don't know if that will be possible. The thing is, I'm going into the ministry, and I have no idea where God is going to send me. But what is the likelihood that He will send me right back where I came from. Jesus himself said that a prophet has no honor in his home town. Now, I'm not saying that I'm a prophet, but if you think about it there is a lot of applicable sense to it. If I were to come back here and become a youth pastor or something like that, there might be people who wouldn't take me very seriously simply because they have known me since I was a child. Or they would think that I was just prideful for trying to teach people who at one time taught me.
On the other hand, I do have a very good reputation in this town and people already do take me fairly seriously. There is also the added factor that many pastors miss out on--the accountability that comes with relationships. If people have known me for so long, they might feel more comfortable approaching me as a person and not as a 'higher being' that they call a pastor. They have seen me as a person with no title what-so-ever, and they might not think so differently of me if I were to come back.
There are a lot of variables, and a plethora of possibilities. However, no matter what the possibilities are, I will still have to follow the call of the Lord wherever he might take me.
God bless.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Monday, August 14, 2006
Zzzzzzzz...Wh-Wha?! I'm Awake!
I've been really tired lately. The thing about that is I have been getting WAY more than my quota of sleep. Today I think I figured out why; I haven't been getting as much exercise as I used to.
During the school year I would walk not only all over school, but to and from school as well. I would also walk all over town and almost everywhere else when I needed to get something or go somewhere. And there is this one hill in town that I used to walk up and down all the time back in the day.
However, for the last few weeks I haven't had school, I haven't needed to go anywhere that I could walk to, and...well...let's just say that monster hill lost it's appeal.
So here I sit every day, infront of my computer working out my fingers. Granted, I get on the computer after I'm done with my work for the day(I'll tell you about that project later). But still, I don't do as much as I used to. I miss that old wandering life, but I became busy with work and stiflingly unmotivated to make the time to wander as I once did.
Now whenever I use my legs for more than just walking around they get tired really fast(that's not normal for me), and I've been really tired because my sleep isn't as restful as it used to be.
I hope I'm not this lazy in college. Can you say freshman fifteen? Yeah, Laters.
During the school year I would walk not only all over school, but to and from school as well. I would also walk all over town and almost everywhere else when I needed to get something or go somewhere. And there is this one hill in town that I used to walk up and down all the time back in the day.
However, for the last few weeks I haven't had school, I haven't needed to go anywhere that I could walk to, and...well...let's just say that monster hill lost it's appeal.
So here I sit every day, infront of my computer working out my fingers. Granted, I get on the computer after I'm done with my work for the day(I'll tell you about that project later). But still, I don't do as much as I used to. I miss that old wandering life, but I became busy with work and stiflingly unmotivated to make the time to wander as I once did.
Now whenever I use my legs for more than just walking around they get tired really fast(that's not normal for me), and I've been really tired because my sleep isn't as restful as it used to be.
I hope I'm not this lazy in college. Can you say freshman fifteen? Yeah, Laters.
Monday, August 07, 2006
No Ink Stains On This Summer, Eh?
Want to know something crazy?
Last Summer I was gone two different times for three weeks at a time. That's half the Summer right there.
This year I was gone for one week, and I'll be gone for one more week before I go back to school.
So here is the weird thing.
Last summer I posted a bunch.
This summer...well...you can still see posts from before school was out on the main page, and the main page only shows the last seven or so posts.
Explanation: My mind has been kind of full lately.
It would seem like I would then have a lot of stuff to put in my blog, but no, that's not true.
Actually the way it works is like this:
The more I have on my mind, the harder it is for any of it to come out of my mind.
I think I need to go back to writing by hand. Not everything, just do some writing in that format. I've found that when I write by hand it's a lot more relaxing. The words flow out on to the page...well, here, I'll explain it with an excerpt from a paper I wrote in my AP English class:
"Slowly, one by one, my thoughts begin to fall out of my head onto the once blank page. As each thought comes forward more thoughts begin to take notice of the portal through which they can escape. Soon the page is filling, the pen is flying, and the thoughts are crowding the gate; almost preventing any thoughts from coming through. So many ideas, words, and indescribable concepts come forth that I can scarcely decide which ones are worthy of this paper."
......
"The pen screams to be freed from the limiting grasp of my hand. All my thoughts are like magma squeezed against the crust of the earth. If only there was a way for every one of those thoughts to burst forth from my mind onto the pages of this small book."
This is often what happens when I write.
When I type I produce a different kind of writing. When I free-type about something I usually reach forward and fight my way toward an unknown end. The mental process is similar to when I free-write, but the feel is different.
Free-writing is more of an unleashing of what has been building up in my head.
Free-typing is more of a mechanical process working mathematically, scientifically, theologically and philosophically toward an ultimate product.
I like free-typing. I really enjoy going through the process, and realizing the outcome.
However, free-writing is more of a relaxing release. It helps me to see what is really going on in my head. Some times it helps me to take what's in my head and actually work through it so that I can get some kind of closure or release from certain things.
All this to say,
I need to do more free-writing.
(And did I mention the cool knuckle ink-stains...I'm left handed...I smear...ink knuckles happen.)
Last Summer I was gone two different times for three weeks at a time. That's half the Summer right there.
This year I was gone for one week, and I'll be gone for one more week before I go back to school.
So here is the weird thing.
Last summer I posted a bunch.
This summer...well...you can still see posts from before school was out on the main page, and the main page only shows the last seven or so posts.
Explanation: My mind has been kind of full lately.
It would seem like I would then have a lot of stuff to put in my blog, but no, that's not true.
Actually the way it works is like this:
The more I have on my mind, the harder it is for any of it to come out of my mind.
I think I need to go back to writing by hand. Not everything, just do some writing in that format. I've found that when I write by hand it's a lot more relaxing. The words flow out on to the page...well, here, I'll explain it with an excerpt from a paper I wrote in my AP English class:
"Slowly, one by one, my thoughts begin to fall out of my head onto the once blank page. As each thought comes forward more thoughts begin to take notice of the portal through which they can escape. Soon the page is filling, the pen is flying, and the thoughts are crowding the gate; almost preventing any thoughts from coming through. So many ideas, words, and indescribable concepts come forth that I can scarcely decide which ones are worthy of this paper."
......
"The pen screams to be freed from the limiting grasp of my hand. All my thoughts are like magma squeezed against the crust of the earth. If only there was a way for every one of those thoughts to burst forth from my mind onto the pages of this small book."
This is often what happens when I write.
When I type I produce a different kind of writing. When I free-type about something I usually reach forward and fight my way toward an unknown end. The mental process is similar to when I free-write, but the feel is different.
Free-writing is more of an unleashing of what has been building up in my head.
Free-typing is more of a mechanical process working mathematically, scientifically, theologically and philosophically toward an ultimate product.
I like free-typing. I really enjoy going through the process, and realizing the outcome.
However, free-writing is more of a relaxing release. It helps me to see what is really going on in my head. Some times it helps me to take what's in my head and actually work through it so that I can get some kind of closure or release from certain things.
All this to say,
I need to do more free-writing.
(And did I mention the cool knuckle ink-stains...I'm left handed...I smear...ink knuckles happen.)
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Who Is This 'Kin' Guy Anyway?
*Ding*Good evening ladies and gentlemen. Flight 215 for Biglesworth will be slightly delayed due to a swarm of sheep. The flight attendants will be serving an in-flight snack in just a moment. Thank you for choosing Terra-flight Airlines. We hope you enjoy the ride.*Ding*
Hey everyone. I'm back, and I'm more dangerous than ever. I had a great time at Veritas this last week. I learned a lot. If you want to know what I learned, you'll have to just get in contact with me. You know, give me the light of day. 'Cause in order to tell you what I've learned, it would take more time and energy than I have right now. What I can tell you is this; I realized that my identity is in Christ. I knew this before Veritas, but it was at Veritas that it became real to me. I started thinking about how I live, and where I tend to place my identity. Long story short, my life is in Christ.
*Hi! I'm an adopted child of the one true God. But most people call me Kin.*
Hey everyone. I'm back, and I'm more dangerous than ever. I had a great time at Veritas this last week. I learned a lot. If you want to know what I learned, you'll have to just get in contact with me. You know, give me the light of day. 'Cause in order to tell you what I've learned, it would take more time and energy than I have right now. What I can tell you is this; I realized that my identity is in Christ. I knew this before Veritas, but it was at Veritas that it became real to me. I started thinking about how I live, and where I tend to place my identity. Long story short, my life is in Christ.
*Hi! I'm an adopted child of the one true God. But most people call me Kin.*
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Bloggers Anonymous
Umm, hello. My name is Kin. I like fast cars and long walks off short piers. If I were an animal, I would be an iguana, 'cause that's what I guana be. My imaginary friend is a wallaby. For those of you who don't know, wallabies are kind of like kangaroos, only smaller. And that's why God gave us toes.
'Nough said.
So here I am in the middle of week...three...--I think--...of my Summer. So far I have done about half of the things that I wanted to do coming into this Summer...only not. I did get to finally go to the elusive 'Buck Lake'. I've been wanting to go there ever since a certain friend told me about it a year ago. It's a really beautiful place out in the woods far, far away from human civilization.
Next week I'll be leaving for Summer Seminary. Thursday the 6th. Gone. Bye bye. Adios...But I'll be back on the 15th.
'Nough said.
So here I am in the middle of week...three...--I think--...of my Summer. So far I have done about half of the things that I wanted to do coming into this Summer...only not. I did get to finally go to the elusive 'Buck Lake'. I've been wanting to go there ever since a certain friend told me about it a year ago. It's a really beautiful place out in the woods far, far away from human civilization.
Next week I'll be leaving for Summer Seminary. Thursday the 6th. Gone. Bye bye. Adios...But I'll be back on the 15th.
Monday, June 19, 2006
Sun Screen *Check*, Towel *Check*, Brain...Uh Oh.
I'm not so sure that this summer will be as exciting as last year. I know that I was gone a lot last summer, so every time I posted I had had plenty of time to gain lots of great blogging material (though, I think I forgot most of it by the time I got to the computer ;-).
Well, this summer I am not going to be 'gone' quite as much. The only two times that I yet know of when I will be gone for extended periods of time are:
July 6-15: summer seminary
August (I don't know the exact dates, but it's like the last full week of August): family vacation
The rest of the time I'll be around...somewhere. :-D
As for now, I'm a little out of it. I've got a few things on my mind. This will be a long-but-too-short-very-interesting-very-boring-hard-work-easy-slacking summer. Pray for me. Laters.
Well, this summer I am not going to be 'gone' quite as much. The only two times that I yet know of when I will be gone for extended periods of time are:
July 6-15: summer seminary
August (I don't know the exact dates, but it's like the last full week of August): family vacation
The rest of the time I'll be around...somewhere. :-D
As for now, I'm a little out of it. I've got a few things on my mind. This will be a long-but-too-short-very-interesting-very-boring-hard-work-easy-slacking summer. Pray for me. Laters.
Monday, June 12, 2006
Has Anyone Seen My Keys?
It would appear as though I am all too busy these days with everything I have had on my plate. The evidence of this can be seen in the lack of new postidge on my blog. My last post was two weeks ago yesterday. Allow me to explain what all has been going on in that time.
First of all I had Spring Fling rehearsals and performances. Rehearsals were everyday after school. It was a little crazy, and I was glad that I didn't have that much home work to do at the time. Then came the performances on the 1st and 2nd of June. I had a solo that I biffed in two places both nights. Though each night it was two different places. In spite of those little mishaps, however, everyone loved it. All in all the whole Spring Fling was really great. I had fun with it. My fifth and final Spring Fling. The theme, by the way, was 20th century celebration. We did music from every decade. Good times.
Another thing that has had me on my toes these past couple weeks was finals. I'm finally done with school for the year, and I'm completely done with high school for the rest of my life.
The last thing that has been occupying my time was the Senior trip I went on with the other seniors from my church. We got back yesterday. Sun River was our vacation spot. We went white-water rafting, mountain-biking, and swimming. We hung out and played games (settlers of Catan.) It was a really fun trip.
NOW, I'm home, and my Summer of labor and toil has begun before I go off to start the strenuous four years of college that stand before me. Exciting, eh? Laters.
First of all I had Spring Fling rehearsals and performances. Rehearsals were everyday after school. It was a little crazy, and I was glad that I didn't have that much home work to do at the time. Then came the performances on the 1st and 2nd of June. I had a solo that I biffed in two places both nights. Though each night it was two different places. In spite of those little mishaps, however, everyone loved it. All in all the whole Spring Fling was really great. I had fun with it. My fifth and final Spring Fling. The theme, by the way, was 20th century celebration. We did music from every decade. Good times.
Another thing that has had me on my toes these past couple weeks was finals. I'm finally done with school for the year, and I'm completely done with high school for the rest of my life.
The last thing that has been occupying my time was the Senior trip I went on with the other seniors from my church. We got back yesterday. Sun River was our vacation spot. We went white-water rafting, mountain-biking, and swimming. We hung out and played games (settlers of Catan.) It was a really fun trip.
NOW, I'm home, and my Summer of labor and toil has begun before I go off to start the strenuous four years of college that stand before me. Exciting, eh? Laters.
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