Saturday, February 09, 2013

North-East Montana

When I first arrived it was mostly brown. Not an exciting color. But the romantic in me saw it as the golden-brown of fields in the time of harvest. Such a distinction gave this drab landscape a purpose and an importance, and therefore a beauty.
There are no mountains this far east of the Rockies. Only rolling hills with occasional plateaus that drop off suddenly into creek-bed crevasses, bone dry in the prairie sun.
The vast expanse is the thing that really gets me. I grew up in the Willamette Valley at the foot of Mt. Hood; surrounded by forests and peaks. There was a limit to the eye's scope. The horizon was found in the tops of trees. A true, unfiltered sunrise was a rare thing.
Here the human eye is limited only by its own disabilities and the curvature of the great sphere. You look out and you see the big world that you grew up hearing about in stories and watching in the old westerns. The eye surveys the vast emptiness, but the heart sees the wild frontier; full of adventure and life; at once both wild and wonderful.
Back in the city, there is a lot of work to be done, and it seems so important and prestigious (at times). But this is the land, the dirt, the soil. This is where hard work, good work is put forth to survive and to prosper. There is no Starbucks around every corner, or even a grocery store for that matter. This is not a land of convenience or amusement. It is a harder land, a simpler land, and in that sense, a purer land.
And then there is the snow. In Oregon snow comes down, lands, and either melts at once, or waits a matter of hours (maybe a day) before fading into the puddles and creeks. It is wet, and it is dead. 
The snow in Montana is very different. It often comes in flurries as legions of flakes riding the great winds over the plains. Even if it comes to land in some location, there is every chance that it will jump right up onto the back of the breeze and carry on its way. And in this frigged haze the world turns from gold to white. The very floor of nature becomes a blank page on which the adventures of two children, three tabby cats, and a black-capped chickadee can be written and easily read. Every footprint is crisp in the making and clear in the leaving. The expanse is all bright and dark as the shadows of the rolling plains are cast here and there across the land's fresh blanket.
As the fog sets in and a bitter chill begins to creep from west to east, castle spires form on every upright surface. Soon half the world is white with crystallized fog while the other side remains both dark and colorful. Giant, half-flocked, Christmas trees stand with the appearance of dwelling in two worlds: One of sun-bathed forests and the other of winter-laden lands.
This is the mysterious and majestic land in which I now dwell. The creativity and power of God is present in every moment; every biting breeze; every passing cloud; every waving field. God is here.
And now, so am I.

Friday, June 15, 2012

When "I" Win, We All Lose A Little

Last night I had some guys over to my house for a game night. We played a game that I have appreciated since my freshman year of college. After observing how excited I was to play it last night, I have come to realize that it is my all-time favorite board game; Shadows Over Camelot.
No, it is not like Dungeons & Dragons. Essentially you play as the knights of the roundtable, all working together against the game. This may sound like a simple task, but the game fights hard and plays dirty. Winning is no small feat.
But I love this game. I love the camaraderie that it fosters. I love the opportunities it presents to teach the values and Christ-seeking character traits of the knights of the roundtable. For me the game carries memories of my freshman year in college, talking with "Mack" for hours about the knights. He taught me a lot about those subtle yet important character traits that become a man of God.
These are all important elements that combine to create my strong appreciation for this game. However, as far as the game in itself goes, the thing that I most enjoy about it is the team aspect; it truly is all against the game. We all win together, or we all lose together.
I was reading a book last fall wherein the writer presented the notion that all of our society's strongly acclaimed "healthy competition" is anything but. Before you click the back button on your browser, let me challenge you to at least think about this. Our society holds a lot of values that we have grown up with and accept because we have been taught that they are natural and good. Christ came to shake up our perceptions of "natural" and "good." He wanted to give us the opportunity to see these things as he sees them. So please, let's at least explore this idea for the sake of double-checking our preconceptions. What if this is one of those areas that has us all fooled into living a damaging lie?
What if there is no such thing as "healthy competition"?
What is the point of competition anyway? In every case one competes with the intention of either proving oneself to be the best, or perhaps merely discovering where one sits on the spectrum of ability and skill.
Jesus didn't get caught up in these games, and he shut it down when it came up among his disciples:
"An argument started among the disciples as to which of them would be the greatest. Jesus, knowing their thoughts, took a little child and had him stand beside him. Then he said to them, 'Whoever welcomes this little child in my name welcomes me; and whoever welcomes me welcomes the one who sent me. For he who is least among you all--he is the greatest.'" (Luke 9:46-48)
The disciples, in an attempt to at least maintain some status, try to set up an us-and-them wall:
"'Master,' said John, 'we saw a man driving out demons in your name and we tried to stop him, because he is not one of us.'"
But Jesus doesn't bite:
"'Do not stop him,' Jesus said, 'for whoever is not against you is for you.'" (Luke 9:49-50)
Whoever is not against you is for you. So why do we keep trying to turn all these friends into enemies by pitting ourselves against them? Why do we make our own superiority more important than our relationships?
And what is so great about us anyway? What good is it to prove that I am accomplished in some external area of my life? God says, "The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart" (1 Samuel 16:7). Who really cares where I fit on man's silly spectrum of accomplishment?! Not God.
Paul says, "If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself. Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, for each one should carry his own load" (Galatians 6:3-5). We are not called to compare ourselves to others, but to our own selves. Only then, when we have determined that we are adequate to the task that has been given to us, can we be proud. Yet, it is not a pride that stands out among others. Instead it is an inner confidence in our standing before God. It is the humbled understanding that God's guiding and steadying hand is the thing that enables us to endure the load we carry.
I don't see much encouragement in scripture for this so-called "healthy competition." Everything I see in scripture talks about setting others above yourself, serving over being served, taking pride in low positions when the world would have you think highly of yourself.
Don't get me wrong. I think it is still possible to enjoy a game that involves winners and losers. What does concern me is that those people who push so fervently for others to participate in their "healthy competition" are often the ones for whom competition is a major stumbling block. It is precisely those people who are least capable of maintaining healthy lives when in competitive atmospheres.
Think about it. Then go find some way to edify someone else instead of finding a way to dominate them. Let me know how that works for you.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

The Monster I've Become

Every monster needs an owner; someone to feed it, care for it, and raise it as his own. There are all kinds of owners, and each one will raise a different sort of monster. Suffice it to say that when making a monster the first step is to find an owner.
The next thing is to give the owner an Idea. This is where creativity and careful selection comes in. Different owners will respond to different Ideas. The most important element is that the Idea be given a label. Some owners will respond best if the Idea has a label that is simple yet strong, such as “true”, “right”, or “just.” Others will attach themselves more to Ideas labeled “fun”, “popular”, “manly”, or even “secure.” For some it is better to give them a “good” Idea, others will attend more to a “bad” Idea. If it is a truly “good” Idea, the monster will likely grow big and strong yet remain unnoticed. For the Idea is the monster (or at least the guise of the monster). As the owner feeds the Idea, the monster grows.
 It matters little if anyone else does or does not see the monster. Especially if the Idea is a “good” one, others are likely to help in the feeding. Most important is that the owner sees the labels “true” and “right” whenever the Idea enters the room… at least for the time being.
Eventually the owner will begin to compare everything else with his “right” Idea; first a little foible in his boss, then some ignorance in his neighbor. He will tolerate these for some time, comforting himself in the thought that he has the “truth” and knows “right” from not.
Then one day the owner will exhibit his Idea—of moderate size by this time—to his friends. He will put it on display for them to bask in the power and beauty of his very own Idea. His friends, however, will be less than impressed. Some will laugh, some will shrug, and some will return to their discussions of caviar and Cadbury eggs. One of his friends might show an interest in the Idea, but only enough to draw the discussion to his own Idea (which has been locked up in his basement for the last three months).
The owner will become infuriated by the response of his friends. Here he has a perfectly good Idea—more than that, it is the “right” Idea—and they won’t even give it the time of day! What is to be done? How can he convince them, exhort them, set them straight? After all, he’s got the “right” Idea, and everyone should recognize it.
What the owner doesn’t realize is that over all this time, as the Idea has been fed, and tended, and grown, it has also changed. It is no longer the Idea it was in the beginning. What started out as a “good” Idea may have turned slowly and imperceptibly into a rather “bad” Idea. Or it may simply be another generally “good” Idea. Either way, the owner will think it is still the same Idea he fed from a little “thought”, and try to feed it in much the same manner as before. What’s worse, after the fiasco with his friends he will try to feed it much more in hopes that it will grow to an un-shruggable, un-laughable, un-snubbable size. With a “true” and “right” Idea that big, everyone will have to recognize it—even his incompetent neighbor.
Unfortunately, the Idea will not be pleased with this dietary strategy. Food for “thought” is not food fit for grand Ideas. It will become discontent, and demand ever more creative sources of fulfillment. The Idea will grow. That much the owner will achieve. But it will grow distorted and gnarled. It will become too big for its cage, and the owner will find it following him everywhere.
The Idea will follow him to work and chew up his boss’s desk. It will follow him to church and eat the hat off the old lady in the third pew on the left (the lady who wears far too much perfume and coughs something horrible during the climax of every sermon). It will even get into the neighbor’s yard and dig up all the tulips, and bite an ear off the neighbor’s schnauzer.
Before he knows what has happened, the owner will be carrying his destructive monster of an Idea with him everywhere. And do you know what people will think? Will they be impressed, or convinced, or even concerned? Chances are…they will not.
What is more likely is that they will recognize the monster for what it is—a very bad Idea. They will respond to it with great indifference and the subtle satisfaction of knowing that their own Idea is so much “better.”

Friday, February 17, 2012

Perspective

*Journal Entry*
Perspective is an interesting concept. As I write this I am thousands of feet in the air, flying home after a wedding in California.
Looking down I see the cars inching their way along the road below. I think back to the trip I made with my friends in college. We drove all the way from Salem to Disneyland, stopping only at the house of my friend whose wedding I was in yesterday. It took so long just to cross the border into California. The scenery slipped by at a rapid pace, and although it took some time, we seemed to be moving along fast enough.
From up here I see miles upon miles of endless, curving roads. The cars zipping along down there seem to scoot through the pass at a snail's pace. Three years ago when we made that trip we were four young, ambitious college students with things we wanted to do, places we wanted to see. We were racing through college one assignment at a time (and sometimes three). The lessons, experiences, adventures, and friendships flew past as we rushed down the freeway of college life. Down on the road all we could see were the things that were important to us: relationships, grades, adventures, and making our mark on the world.
As it is, I'm not far removed from that freeway, and my perspective hasn't changed much. But as I look down on those rippling ridges and patchwork plains I can't help but think that some day I will look at the landscape of my life and realize that those speeding miles were lingering inches, and all around me was a world and a story that I could never have fathomed.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

He Sets The Lonely In Families

It truly is a wonderful time of year. Some folks would go so far as to say it is the Most wonderful time of the year. Others would find that hard to believe. For some people it is the most lonely time of the year (just watch the opening credits to the movie "Surviving Christmas" and you'll see what I mean). It's a time when family comes together...unless you have no family. It's a time to celebrate with friends...unless your world is friendless.
Who cares if a baby was miraculously born so many years ago? Who cares that angels proclaimed the birth of a new king? Peace on earth and good will toward men are great taglines, but where are they?
Even our Christmas specials and holiday movies declare over and over again that the only thing you truly need to have a wonderful, joyful, and maybe even miraculous Christmas is your family and friends. So what good is this holy celebration to those who are lonely and abandoned?

If this is you, I would say that you have more to gain from the miraculous Christ-child than any of us. And if that is going too far, then at the very least you could understand and appreciate him and his purpose more than most. He came here for you.

In celebrating the Christmas season we rejoice in the coming (and subsequent life, death, and resurrection) of our savior, and look forward to the second coming of our glorious king.
But there is more to the birth of baby Jesus than that. There is something much more simple, and perhaps more meaningful in the coming of the God-child.
I am talking about Emmanuel.
It means "God with us." God has come down to be with us; to live with us; to know and be known by us.
Jesus didn't just come to die. He came to start a relationship between man and God that had been--for the most part--lost since the fall of Adam and Eve. He came because he sees our loneliness and wants to fill it with his love. That is why he came in our likeness to relate with us, connect with us, and show us how much he loves us: first in his life and even more in his death.
God knows we are lonely. We are ALL lonely. Certainly, we cover it up well with our schedule of activities, our social circles, our hobbies, and our vices. But when you take them all away we feel just how lost, empty, and alone we really are. God is not fooled by our antics. He knows. That's why he came to be with us.
He came to show us where we are and lead us on the right path. He came to feed us the bread and water of life. He came to care for us, to be with us, and to create a family for us with him as the firstborn and God as our father.
"A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling. God sets the lonely in families, he leads forth the prisoners with singing" (Psalm 68:5).
Even Christ's death was the means of making a way for us--broken and wicked humans--to approach and know the perfect and loving God. He made a way for us to have a relationship with himself now and forever.

So as we celebrate this Christmas season may we certainly worship the Christ-child as God and honor him as king, but may we also love him as our great and dear friend.
"We love because he first loved us." (1 John 4:19)

Sunday, October 16, 2011

God Loves Us

Why is god so judgmental?
That seems to be the question that bothers a lot of people these days (and probably for millennia past).
"What does god have against us anyway? What did we do that's got him so ticked off?
"I don't think that's very reasonable of him. In fact I don't think that's really god at all. I think that's just the impression of god created by religious systems that want to manipulate people and scare them into their masses.
"So then, if there is a god, what is he like? What would make a good god?
"God should be kind, good, loving, peaceful. And why not? After all, we know that the opposite of those things would make for a very bad god. So if there really is a good god he must be those things. Which also must mean that he can't be judging, because judging isn't very loving..." or is it?
Let's think about this for a moment. Why is love so great?
1 Corinthians 13:4-8, 13 says:
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails...And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Love looks like a pretty good thing. I can see why people would want a god of love.
Looking even further we see that love fulfills all the requirements of scripture.
One of them, an expert in the law, tested [Jesus] with this question: 'Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?'
Jesus replied: '"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind." This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: "Love your neighbor as yourself." All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.' (Matthew 22:35-40)
And again:
Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellow man has fulfilled the law. The commandments, 'Do not commit adultery,' 'Do not murder,' 'Do not steal,' 'Do not covet,' and whatever other commandment there may be, are summed up in this one rule: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' Love does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law. (Romans 13:8-10)
Does this not sound appealing? If the world was governed by love, would it not be a wonderful place to live?
Why is that? How do we know that the world would be better without these things (murder, theft, covetousness/envy)? What is it about love that generates these actions of good-will, this way of life that would be so...good?
I would submit as the answer to these questions, Righteousness.
Love knows right and wrong. Love seeks out what is right for ones own actions, and for the benefit of others.
Love longs for justice. NOT the broken justice of our corrupt human legal systems, but the justice that is governed by Righteousness and Truth.
This is why we long for a god of love. We have lived for so long in a broken, evil and corrupt world. We see the wrong done to others; the wrong done to those we care about; the wrong done to those for whom our hearts break. We want justice. We love.

Now do you see why a god who is simply our approximation of "love" is an incomplete god? We think of love, but not of righteousness. We want a god that cares for us, but we don't want a god of justice.
We cannot have true love without righteousness. We cannot have care and concern without a desire for justice.
Now do you see why God--a great God of limitless love and measurelesss mercy--must be a righteous God; a just God?
For it is written:
The LORD reigns forever; he has established his throne for judgment. He will judge the world in righteousness; he will govern the peoples with justice. The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you. (Psalm 9:7-10)
And again, "Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!" (Isaiah 30:18).
If we do not understand justice in conjunction with love, it is because we are a broken and sinful people. We do not have true righteousness as our compass. That is why we NEED a God who is not only a god of love, but also a God of justice.
"Many seek an audience with a ruler, but it is from the LORD that man gets justice" (Proverbs 29:26).
We need a Benevolent Ruler and a Righteous Judge.
We cannot have one without the other.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

I Want To Ride My Bicycle

The godly life is like building a bike. Only it's not like building a bike. But if it helps, yeah, it's like building a bike.
I was reading Paul's letter to the Church in Rome when this parallel occurred to me. In chapter 2, verses 12-29 Paul addresses the issue of having the law vs. obeying the law. He says that those who have the law (the Jews) yet don't obey it will be judged by it. And those who don't have the law (everyone else, aka. Gentiles) yet obey it are declared righteous.
My thoughts went to Christ's parable of the two sons who were each given the same instructions. Their father tells them to go out and work. One son says he will, but never does. The other son says he won't, yet decides later to go out and work anyway. It is the second son who is praised, even though he initially dishonored his father by refusing his instruction.
As I considered further I realized that it is very much like building a bike. It could be building anything at all, really. But for the sake of this discussion let's call it a bike.
When you first purchase a bicycle they usually come with instructions for assembly. Many a man throughout the ages has rejected the manufacturer's suggestion that they follow the complimentary assembly pamphlet. And what has been the conclusion? countless bicycles, tricycles, wagons, play structures, BBQ's, tents, book shelves, and all other sorts of structures and accessories have been utterly butchered.
What pleasure will be had from a bike that doesn't work? Who is going to praise the man that built something wrong? There is no gain. There is no reward.
So what does this teach us, that if we follow the instructions we will always be right? Not quite.
Certainly there are those people who look to and follow the instructions as they form their bicycle in a sufficient manner. And of course there are people who can assemble most things without using the instructions. These two groups--whether following the written instructions intentionally or not--will get their reward. We would agree with that. That makes sense.
But there are those, are there not, who, try as they might, don't really get the instructions even when they read them? They look at the instructions just enough to make them dangerous, but the result is a mess. Or they come into it with their own ideas of how it should go, and then glance at the directions so they can say that they had.
Again I ask, what is gained from a bike that doesn't work? Who will praise a man for building something wrong?
Paul uses the image of a structure to describe a man's life in one of his letters to the Christians in Corinth.
By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation [the Gospel] as an expert builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should be careful how he builds. For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ. If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man's work. If what he has built survives, he will receive his reward. If it is burned up, he will suffer loss; he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames. (1 Cor. 3:10-15)
Here Paul is talking to people who are, without a doubt, saved. This isn't quite the issue of Jews/Gentiles or law/no law that we see in Romans. But I think the concept of living in obedience vs. living in rebellion (ie. selfishly) carries through. We have everything we need for life and godliness (2 Peter 1:3). We have the Spirit of God within us. So how are we going to keep building this house? Will we seek God's best, and in obedience build with gold, silver and costly stones--which takes more effort and comes at a higher price. Or will we try to make it on our own, pleasing ourselves, and building with hay, straw and sticks because they are cheap and easy materials? It all goes through a purifying fire in the end. Which of those materials do you think will form into a crown of righteousness?
Who will praise the man that builds a house that is burnt to the ground?
It is far better to simply obey.
May God help me and guide me in obedience to Him.