Midway Checkpoint

I survived the first two weeks of counseling. I would love to be able to say that both weeks my cabin was filled with a bunch of heathens who didn't know anything about God, and over the week I showed them how much God loves them and saw them accept God's gift of salvation which was promptly followed by drastic changes in their lives. Fact of the matter is most of the kids in my cabin already knew and believed in Jesus, yet they still didn't get along with each other, and the only change that came of the week was the depth of their frustration with each other--it deepened with each passing day. I have no idea what God will do with what happened for them this week. I just pray that something got through to them.
As I drew closer to the end of this last week and began to realize that both weeks my cabin essentially had the same problem, and neither week did the problem really become resolved I started to develop some doubts in myself. I started thinking, "maybe I didn't respond in the way I should have. Maybe I didn't meet the challenge, but instead only endured it. Were these two weeks of any value? Have I accomplished anything?"
These thoughts can easily become discouraging and cause me to doubt my value in this ministry. I have to remind myself that I did everything I could, and I cared for them well, and I never stopped loving each of them. Continually I pursued God and his guidance and help. Surely he can take the meager fruit of this last week and nurture it into succulent morsels.
Now I'm looking at the ending of the summer. Half of this week I will be on summer staff retreat. I would like to use that time well; to process a lot of things that have happened over the summer so far. It's taken me this long to realize that I am not capable of processing things in my head. This means that the next week will likely involve a lot of journaling and conversations (Some of those conversations will be with myself, so hopefully people don't see me and think I'm a crazy person...oh well).
We have day camp coming up next week. That will take a lot of focus, energy and patience as I'm dealing with small children who can think of nothing but the next snack time. After day camp comes our high school camp. I'm really looking forward to that last camp. Although, I am concerned that my cabin will continue the theme of my last two cabins--internal conflict.
Please pray that this week I will get the rest and the processing that I need, that I will continue to seek God personally, and that my cabins in the weeks to come will be more collaborative than the ones in the past. Also continue to pray for my campers as they are maybe processing their experiences at camp these last two weeks. God is not done with them yet.
Thank you for your prayers, and God bless.