Perhaps I am over reacting, but maybe I should...START BLOGGING!
Hey everyone out there in blogger land. I just wanted to establish a few points today.
Point #1: It has been a while since I last blogged. 11 days to be exact, but who's counting? ...That's a rhetorical question.
Point #Two: I was not brutally tortured by pirates, cast overboard, and swallowed whole by a giant octopus that miss took me for a sea snail. I know these rumors have been spreading around--and I don't know who starts them--but they just aren't true....despite how totally cool they would be if they were true. I mean, how many people do you know that actually get a chance to be tortured on a pirate ship?
Point #C: .......Point #C is that I don't' have any more points to give. I think that's a pretty good point to establish. I mean, you wouldn't want people thinking "Are there more points? I'm not quite sure. Maybe there are, maybe there aren't.".......don't look at me like I'm crazy.....just 'cause I cover all my bases doesn't make me crazy. There are other things about me that do make me crazy, but that isn't one of them.
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I think I'm just going to leave now. Laters.
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Heart Breaker
Don't let the title fool you. Yes, it is V-day (I don't mean Veterans). But the only thing I've been doing with hearts today is eating them. A friend of mine sits next to me in Chemistry every day. Today she had a bag of chocolate hearts to give to her friends, and a bag of sweet-hearts (you know the ones. They have words written on them, and they have the texture of chalk.) She gave me a two of the chocolate ones and set the other bag out as fare game for everyone at our table. By the end of class she said that she was getting sick of the chalk hearts. I quickly responded with, "Well I'm not." So she gave me the whole bag.
Some people have told me that it's not good for your teeth to be crunching those kinds of things. I still haven't learned. I finished the whole bag...with help. And that, my friends, is all the heart breaking I've been doing today. Just shattered them.
the weather here has been a little bi-polar. On Sunday it was really sunny, and even warm. Today it was snowing. And I don't just mean little snow flakes. I mean snow chunks. And it didn't just last a couple minutes. It went for a little while at multiple times. It's really cool. When a friend of mine came into our first period class this morning she said that "the weather has its holidays mixed up. It was supposed to do this on Christmas. Not on Valentines day."
Some people have told me that it's not good for your teeth to be crunching those kinds of things. I still haven't learned. I finished the whole bag...with help. And that, my friends, is all the heart breaking I've been doing today. Just shattered them.
the weather here has been a little bi-polar. On Sunday it was really sunny, and even warm. Today it was snowing. And I don't just mean little snow flakes. I mean snow chunks. And it didn't just last a couple minutes. It went for a little while at multiple times. It's really cool. When a friend of mine came into our first period class this morning she said that "the weather has its holidays mixed up. It was supposed to do this on Christmas. Not on Valentines day."
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Is There An Expiration Date On This?
This term I don't have any English classes. Next term I'm going to have AP English again. So I've been thinking that I haven't written very much recently, and I might be loosing my touch and my ability to tap my brain for thoughts. That having been said, this post could get lengthy.
There are a lot of things happening in my life right now, and yet I feel as though this is getting to be a really lazy time for me. Is it at all possible for life to be both complicated and extremely simple? Perhaps there is a balance between the two that shows the best of both worlds.
Many things have been changing for me in this time of uncertainty. I'm looking at colleges, and thinking about my future. Not just the future in years to come, but the future of tomorrow, next week, and next month. There are many things I would like to do, many things I should do, and many things I need to do. I try to focus to get things ready for tomorrow, but it seems more and more like I keep setting my focus on things far away. I think less about the here and now than I do about the next two, four, and ten years. I have hopes, dreams, and wishes for my future, and those are what I keep thinking about. However, these things do bring me back to the present where I am able to put that future into place. I keep running into the same realization that my future is built upon what I do now. And yet I continue to return to that image, that idea, those dreams of what could be, and what I am working toward.
Within those dreams are the nightmares of what could happen. A man's future is not within his knowledge. With all the possible hopes and joys of his future there come the possible pains and sufferings. 'What can I do to keep these things from happening?' 'Am I the one who is going to cause it?' 'Why would all this happen if that was to be the outcome?'. These are the questions that haunt my thoughts. For the most part they are all things that I have no control over. These are things that I must entrust to God. I say this knowing that I should trust God with all things. What I mean is that these things I speak of are things that I can do nothing for, and so trusting God with them is the only thing to do.
The future is a difficult thing to deal with.
There are changes going on in my life right now. One of the primary changes is in relationships. Some might believe that relationships are mechanical things, but they aren't. Relationships are living things. They eat, grow, feel, and even die. Right now I'm dealing with a lot of changes in various directions with different relationships. Old ones are slowly fading away, new ones are growing deep and strong. And it is within those relationships that I find myself growing as well.
Plans, decisions, relationships, school; life is pretty full. Yet I still feel as though this point in my life is really relaxed. Perhaps it is because I don't feel very challenged. This is not to say that I am not challenged in all this. Only that I have become used to the physical and mental challenges that life was throwing at me for a time. I know that this next term I will meet many more of those kinds of challenges, but for now there aren't too many.
I know that there is a season for everything. I don't think that this time is wasted. There is probably great potential for learning and growth in this time. I have yet to see how, though I'm sure I could hypothesize some of the potential.
Is it possible for life to be both complex and simple at the same time? There is a balance between the two, and I know what factor causes that balance. God is my refuge and my strength. When I place my life in his hands I can't go wrong. My life could become more complex than any other, and it would still be as simple as placing it in God's hands and following Him. I do not say that these are easy things to do; only that it is not a complicated process.
There are a lot of things happening in my life right now, and yet I feel as though this is getting to be a really lazy time for me. Is it at all possible for life to be both complicated and extremely simple? Perhaps there is a balance between the two that shows the best of both worlds.
Many things have been changing for me in this time of uncertainty. I'm looking at colleges, and thinking about my future. Not just the future in years to come, but the future of tomorrow, next week, and next month. There are many things I would like to do, many things I should do, and many things I need to do. I try to focus to get things ready for tomorrow, but it seems more and more like I keep setting my focus on things far away. I think less about the here and now than I do about the next two, four, and ten years. I have hopes, dreams, and wishes for my future, and those are what I keep thinking about. However, these things do bring me back to the present where I am able to put that future into place. I keep running into the same realization that my future is built upon what I do now. And yet I continue to return to that image, that idea, those dreams of what could be, and what I am working toward.
Within those dreams are the nightmares of what could happen. A man's future is not within his knowledge. With all the possible hopes and joys of his future there come the possible pains and sufferings. 'What can I do to keep these things from happening?' 'Am I the one who is going to cause it?' 'Why would all this happen if that was to be the outcome?'. These are the questions that haunt my thoughts. For the most part they are all things that I have no control over. These are things that I must entrust to God. I say this knowing that I should trust God with all things. What I mean is that these things I speak of are things that I can do nothing for, and so trusting God with them is the only thing to do.
The future is a difficult thing to deal with.
There are changes going on in my life right now. One of the primary changes is in relationships. Some might believe that relationships are mechanical things, but they aren't. Relationships are living things. They eat, grow, feel, and even die. Right now I'm dealing with a lot of changes in various directions with different relationships. Old ones are slowly fading away, new ones are growing deep and strong. And it is within those relationships that I find myself growing as well.
Plans, decisions, relationships, school; life is pretty full. Yet I still feel as though this point in my life is really relaxed. Perhaps it is because I don't feel very challenged. This is not to say that I am not challenged in all this. Only that I have become used to the physical and mental challenges that life was throwing at me for a time. I know that this next term I will meet many more of those kinds of challenges, but for now there aren't too many.
I know that there is a season for everything. I don't think that this time is wasted. There is probably great potential for learning and growth in this time. I have yet to see how, though I'm sure I could hypothesize some of the potential.
Is it possible for life to be both complex and simple at the same time? There is a balance between the two, and I know what factor causes that balance. God is my refuge and my strength. When I place my life in his hands I can't go wrong. My life could become more complex than any other, and it would still be as simple as placing it in God's hands and following Him. I do not say that these are easy things to do; only that it is not a complicated process.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Will It Ever End?!?!
I know I've been gone a lot lately, but I have good news for you...I'm going to be gone for the next two days. This time I will be attending the long awaited Corban College preview.
I have to be there at some time around four o'clock tomorrow. Then I will spend hours and hours getting to know the campus, meeting the professors, and hopefully running into some old compadres. I have an audition for the music department on Friday at 8 PM. I have to sing two songs for my audition, as well as play a piece on my trumpet. I don't know why, but lately I've been thinking that I sound terrible vocally. I don't know why. It might have something to do with the fact that I have recently heard 300 good voices all singing in unison to the point of magnificent beauty within music. And now, I can hear all the imperfections in my own voice.
I guess now I just get to see what God can do with me. I'll be back soon. Laters.
I have to be there at some time around four o'clock tomorrow. Then I will spend hours and hours getting to know the campus, meeting the professors, and hopefully running into some old compadres. I have an audition for the music department on Friday at 8 PM. I have to sing two songs for my audition, as well as play a piece on my trumpet. I don't know why, but lately I've been thinking that I sound terrible vocally. I don't know why. It might have something to do with the fact that I have recently heard 300 good voices all singing in unison to the point of magnificent beauty within music. And now, I can hear all the imperfections in my own voice.
I guess now I just get to see what God can do with me. I'll be back soon. Laters.
Saturday, February 04, 2006
Where Did My Sandwich Go?
Wow, I never realized how easy it could be to not blog. But, it's okay, cause I'm back.
I went to a college preview at Multnomah Bible College on Thursday and Friday. It was interesting. Regardless of whether or not I now think I should go there it was a good thing for me to go to the preview. There have been a lot of things on my mind lately; things that I've been trying to clear up with God; things that I have no control over, and that I tend to want to control anyway. Being at that preview helped me to get back to God, and trust Him with all of it. I have no doubt that the struggle is not over. But then again wars are won in battles, not all at once.
I went to the dentist on Tuesday. I got the 'go ahead' from the Doc. To get my wisdom teeth removed. Now I just have to wait. The consultation is scheduled for the 27th of this month. The extraction is going to be on the 27th of next month. (I prefer the term 'extraction' to 'surgery') They're going to have to put me under during the operation. I guess that's okay cause I won't have to sit there for an hour watching them cut up my mouth. But it will mean that they are going to put even more drugs in my system. I hate the idea of putting drugs into my system. The most powerful drug I've ever taken was aspirin. And I only take those on rare occasions.
But the extraction must take place. I'm getting them taken out on the Monday of spring break. That way I won't miss any school or performances. I'll have a week after I've recovered to practice my instruments before any performances. Pretty much it's the best time to get them taken away.
I guess that's all about that. Laters.
I went to a college preview at Multnomah Bible College on Thursday and Friday. It was interesting. Regardless of whether or not I now think I should go there it was a good thing for me to go to the preview. There have been a lot of things on my mind lately; things that I've been trying to clear up with God; things that I have no control over, and that I tend to want to control anyway. Being at that preview helped me to get back to God, and trust Him with all of it. I have no doubt that the struggle is not over. But then again wars are won in battles, not all at once.
I went to the dentist on Tuesday. I got the 'go ahead' from the Doc. To get my wisdom teeth removed. Now I just have to wait. The consultation is scheduled for the 27th of this month. The extraction is going to be on the 27th of next month. (I prefer the term 'extraction' to 'surgery') They're going to have to put me under during the operation. I guess that's okay cause I won't have to sit there for an hour watching them cut up my mouth. But it will mean that they are going to put even more drugs in my system. I hate the idea of putting drugs into my system. The most powerful drug I've ever taken was aspirin. And I only take those on rare occasions.
But the extraction must take place. I'm getting them taken out on the Monday of spring break. That way I won't miss any school or performances. I'll have a week after I've recovered to practice my instruments before any performances. Pretty much it's the best time to get them taken away.
I guess that's all about that. Laters.
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