Is There An Expiration Date On This?

This term I don't have any English classes. Next term I'm going to have AP English again. So I've been thinking that I haven't written very much recently, and I might be loosing my touch and my ability to tap my brain for thoughts. That having been said, this post could get lengthy.

There are a lot of things happening in my life right now, and yet I feel as though this is getting to be a really lazy time for me. Is it at all possible for life to be both complicated and extremely simple? Perhaps there is a balance between the two that shows the best of both worlds.

Many things have been changing for me in this time of uncertainty. I'm looking at colleges, and thinking about my future. Not just the future in years to come, but the future of tomorrow, next week, and next month. There are many things I would like to do, many things I should do, and many things I need to do. I try to focus to get things ready for tomorrow, but it seems more and more like I keep setting my focus on things far away. I think less about the here and now than I do about the next two, four, and ten years. I have hopes, dreams, and wishes for my future, and those are what I keep thinking about. However, these things do bring me back to the present where I am able to put that future into place. I keep running into the same realization that my future is built upon what I do now. And yet I continue to return to that image, that idea, those dreams of what could be, and what I am working toward.
Within those dreams are the nightmares of what could happen. A man's future is not within his knowledge. With all the possible hopes and joys of his future there come the possible pains and sufferings. 'What can I do to keep these things from happening?' 'Am I the one who is going to cause it?' 'Why would all this happen if that was to be the outcome?'. These are the questions that haunt my thoughts. For the most part they are all things that I have no control over. These are things that I must entrust to God. I say this knowing that I should trust God with all things. What I mean is that these things I speak of are things that I can do nothing for, and so trusting God with them is the only thing to do.
The future is a difficult thing to deal with.

There are changes going on in my life right now. One of the primary changes is in relationships. Some might believe that relationships are mechanical things, but they aren't. Relationships are living things. They eat, grow, feel, and even die. Right now I'm dealing with a lot of changes in various directions with different relationships. Old ones are slowly fading away, new ones are growing deep and strong. And it is within those relationships that I find myself growing as well.

Plans, decisions, relationships, school; life is pretty full. Yet I still feel as though this point in my life is really relaxed. Perhaps it is because I don't feel very challenged. This is not to say that I am not challenged in all this. Only that I have become used to the physical and mental challenges that life was throwing at me for a time. I know that this next term I will meet many more of those kinds of challenges, but for now there aren't too many.
I know that there is a season for everything. I don't think that this time is wasted. There is probably great potential for learning and growth in this time. I have yet to see how, though I'm sure I could hypothesize some of the potential.

Is it possible for life to be both complex and simple at the same time? There is a balance between the two, and I know what factor causes that balance. God is my refuge and my strength. When I place my life in his hands I can't go wrong. My life could become more complex than any other, and it would still be as simple as placing it in God's hands and following Him. I do not say that these are easy things to do; only that it is not a complicated process.